Hey, remember this thing?
Lately I’ve been acting really strange for some unknown reason. I react easily to stress and have been quick to be emotional. I keep having this looming feeling that I’m about to die or I’ll have a great loss in my life really soon. It’s been freaking me out and driving me to look back at my time in the Midwest.
I realized how much I’ve changed since I’ve been here. I don’t know when, but at some point I lost myself.
I’ve foreseen the death of who I’ve become. I look in the mirror and don’t even recognize myself anymore. It’s a horrible feeling.
Today I make a change. I start giving a fuck about myself.
Hello, life. I’ve missed you.
I look forward to catching up with the boys, this week.
I’ve missed them so much and I’m in great need of some “bro time”.
Stealing this from H.
- You’re a horrible person, but I like you…only because you’re related to me. Go out and live. Stop wasting your life trying to have that perfect house, perfect car, perfect life…by the time you get if (if you ever do) you’ll be way too old to enjoy it. You will die, everyone will forget who you are, and everything you buy will collect dust. Also, stop being such a spoiled brat dude. You’re 22 years old. Grow a pair. Stop taking your shit out on Mom, I know she probably deserves it, but fuck at the rate things are going…I’m going to be the only happy, successful, life enjoying person in the entire family…ME! That’s just fucked up, if you think about it.
- I keep endlessly disappointing you and honestly…I don’t give a damn. You’re the reason I value my friends over my own kin. It feels like I’m buying your love. I gain your approval with things. It’s horrible. Honestly though, I do it because I feel I should take care of you because you never did take care of me.
- God, you’re such an asshole. I grew up thinking you had been wronged but when I actually met you I realized that you’re such a piece of shit. I never felt part of the family and I hoped you would be my answer. I was completely disappointed.
- I love you, but you already know that. We meet purely by fate. Our first conversation, to a stranger, probably looked like we had been friends for years. I would not be the same person, if I had not met you. You’ve saved me so many times, I can’t even begin to tell you how. I’m sorry for the many times I took you for granted and I thank you for always finding it in you to forgive me. I miss you. I can’t wait until we reunite. I look forward to the moment I give you a giant bear hug and you tell me I’m ridiculous. I count the days until you are sitting by my side and we tell each other about our adventures on our own and recall the adventures we had together. My little sister, you know me better than I know myself.
- Our bromance is beautiful. I look forward to us being friends for a very long time. Love you, guy! I don’t need to say much more about you, because you already know what I have to say and I think that’s amazing.
- I could hate you for destroying me but I’m glad you did. If we were still together, I would not have become the bad ass, life loving individual I am now. I would probably still be a depressive piece of spit that followed you around like a puppy dog and obeyed your every command because I wasn’t sure of who I was. So, thanks for that. Bitch.
- I don’t want to push you to the edge but I feel that helping you will be the end of me. I can’t do anything for you, that you wouldn’t do for yourself. Drop it, I’m not the answer you’re looking for, I’m not the love of your life, I’m not going to save you. So please, leave me be. I’m trying to be happy and you’re dragging me down man.
- I’m glad you’re kind to me. I need some good friends around here and I don’t feel that you’ll use me. I look forward to spending more time with you and having lengthy conversations and lolz.
- Time stopper. I’ve never met anyone quite like you. You keep me on the edge of my toes, I like it. I’m glad I don’t spend every waking moment with you because I would get tired of it and feel trapped. You don’t ask too much of me and encourage my ridiculousness. I don’t feel like I have to conform when I’m with you. I look forward to hanging out with you.
- You’re so vain, I bet you think this line is about you.
Well, that killed about 20 minutes…now what do I do?
- I have a disarming personality.
- I’m kind.
- I’ll help out friends in need, even when I’m having a shitty day.
- I’m an excellent listener.
- I’m ridiculously hilarious.
I’m like a Golden Retriever…geez.
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